Sunday Night
Thought I’d start it early in order to make sure that I don’t forget about it. Looks like the weather for the upcoming week is going to stay consistently good again. This is Buffalo? The place where they had the huge snowfall last year before this date? It’s entirely different this year. Very pleased with the weather we’ve had here since I’ve been out of the hospital. Nothing to complain about at all.
Doing the rest of the sleep study on Tuesday night. People in the Ward were kind enough to volunteer to give me the rides that I need there and back. Lynne is more or less night blind and Rte. 33 is a dangerous road with a speed limit that’s too high for the conditions. I’d drive except for the fact that I’m restricted. I don’t want to run “afoul” of either the doctors or enforcement.
Monday
A new work week. It’s a pleasant day and I’m feeling stronger again. I still have to make a point of eating enough to maintain or increase my weight. Eating heartily still isn’t coming naturally. I don’t like having to pay attention to things like eating. Eating should, naturally, take care of itself.
My blood values on the phlebotomy testing have slipped a little bit but they are still good. Nothing to worry about at this point. Let’s hope that it stays this way.
The dinner prepared by volunteers tonight is a pork tenderloin dish served with wine on some kind. People here are in to their wine! Hope they don’t have to drive.
Well, I suppose I ought to get over there to enjoy a good meal. Hope I’m hungry enough to eat! Too bad, wasn’t hungry but the food was great. There was an absolutely awesome squash soup with cayenne to spice it up. Delicious!
TUESDAY
That was last night. Tonight was every bit as good. We’ve had some wonderful dinners over in the main building. The company can be great!
We were able to enlist some help with the rides. This way Lynne doesn’t have to make the trip. She doesn’t have to worry about driving and I don’t have to worry about her.
Saw some of the Buffalo waterfront today. There are three former Navy ships at anchor. There’s a submarine, a destroyer and a guided missile cruiser. It was pretty interesting but I wasn’t able to complete the entire tour because I am still weak. Saw about half of it and that was all I was capable of doing.
I’ve just run out of time. Need to start watching for my ride.
WEDNESDAY
Had my sleep study last night. Slept very profoundly. When I woke up I felt profoundly rested. Surprised that feeling didn’t last all day. Within a few hours I was back into my state of being semi-asleep all of the time where, if I sit down in a chair, I’m nearly asleep in a few minutes if I’m not concentrating on something at the time.
Fortunately, I was able to arrange rides both to and from the study. I wasn’t certain that I was going to be able to because I had misplaced the telephone numbers of those folks who were planning on giving me the rides. Thanks to some very patient members I was able to work that all out. Their help has been a great blessing to me. Everything worked out great.
When you’re sick or disabled, little things seem to grow in importance until they appear to be far more important than they would otherwise be. I hope I can get back to normal activity levels soon!
Had some good news and some bad news today. The good news first! I’m going to be visiting the hospital clinic much less than before. I’ll only be going in to see the doctors and the nurses three times each week. We started out at 6 to 7 visits per week. This will be such a relief. According to them, I’m doing very well. I was glad to hear that.
Now for the bad news. I was in the clinic when my stomach began to ache. It kept getting worse and worse until it was almost overwhelmingly painful. This went on for almost an hour. I had no idea when it was going to end but it went on for about an hour. Don’t know what caused it. Every time I think that I’ve seen it all something else comes along and amazes me with how painful it can be.
Thursday
More good news today. Our 100 days after the transplant (the time we were told we have to remain in Buffalo) began on the day of the transplant not the day I was released. That shortens our stay by as much as 20 days potentially. We could be home well before Christmas. That would be wonderful! And, a little bit sad as well. For the most part, we’re really enjoying getting out of town this way. In some ways (with the exception of the disease), it’s almost like a vacation.
I’m not getting stronger very quickly. I’m disappointed with that. I was hoping for better results. Still, I’m doing okay. Hope it continues this way and they figure out where the graft vs. host disease is manifesting itself and how to keep it under control. Right now it appears to be in my stomach and digestive tract. We’ve also just been told they are going to try to keep us down to 2 visits per week. That will be wonderful! Maybe that will give me time to get some work done?
Got the results back from my sleep study. The pressure is supposed to be set at 14! It’s currently set at 8. No wonder it doesn’t work very well for me! Now I need to take the steps to get it changed. Not certain how to get that accomplished from here.
Friday
Life is an exhilarating experience but we become so used to it that we begin to see it as being mundane. Life is exactly as it was intended to be: A very difficult journey of discovery from start to finish with unending opposition and constant work right up to the end. It’s not something that we always appreciate.
We forget what a great blessing it is and what a wonderful experience. Crises such as my leukemia make that point abundantly clear. Every day in our life is such a blessing but also a challenge of almost equal dimensions. Life is a struggle from beginning to end. It was meant to be this way. Our resentments, our fears and our woundedness come from the fact that we forget this or never knew it to be true in the first place.
Our Father in Heaven is always waiting to help us. Unfortunately, that is an understanding had by remarkably few people. Satan has been extremely effective in obscuring this fact and other essential truths as well. And the world groans under the weight of darkness and sin because of the deceiver’s influence.
People are very worthwhile. Definitely worth the effort it takes to deal with them yet we often fail to see it because of their faults and ours. That’s tragic. We have to do better than that. The only way that I know hoe to do that is to develop an ever increasing humility. Humility permits us to see the good in the people around us and to recognize that we are not in-charge of our lives. There are a few things which we can control in this life and more which we are not. We have a great deal of difficulty in distinguishing which is which. That creates many of our problems.
WordPress can be such a problem is to use. Without even knowing it, I just added on several paragraphs to an older blog while I thought I was adding on to this one. Things like that shouldn’t be possible. Furthermore now I can’t find that blog anymore. It shouldn’t be this difficult to use.
Saturday
My blood chemistry is approaching normal. My platelets are are 66 which is the lowest number that I have. When it gets up towards 100 I’ll feel pretty comfortable with the numbers. The tests tell me I’m healthier but how I feel betrays the numbers. Feeling sick so much of the time is very discouraging. Hopefully it will start improving soon.
Sunday
Went to church today. Generally, I enjoyed it. Three hours is a long time when you’re not feeling well. And I’m not but I know that it could be a good deal worse. Well, that’s it for this week. Now the question is, was this a better way for me to present the blog or worse? It’s hard for me to tell.