Didn’t have to go in to the clinic today. Found a cemetery to walk in and a gas station! We just barely bought gas for the first time since Lynne arrived here almost a month ago. That shows just how little driving we’ve been doing. We’ll be taking some more trips back to Forrest Lawn Cemetery for the peace that it affords. Hope the weather holds up for awhile longer.
It’s nice to be able to get outside in nature. Where we live right now in our apartment, we’re surrounded by new concrete and steel construction going up on two sides of us from before dawn until after dark every day. As beautiful as they have made this location where we live (there’s a street-side park), it will still be nice to get away from all the noise and the construction. The construction companies probably have to get some sort of covering over the construction site so that they can continue working through the Winter. They keep working everyday until it’s no longer possible to keep working.
Last night we were awakened about 3:30 am by someone ringing our doorbell. Got up but didn’t go downstairs. Shortly thereafter I saw someone trying to get into the main building (probably ringing the doorbell). Shortly thereafter, the police showed up (which is what the signs on the door said would happen) and the individual in question was taken away. However, I was awakened and stayed up for about an hour.
I’m getting better but I don’t feel well most of the time. I cycle from feeling good to bad throughout the entire day. Might feel good at 2pm but miserable by 3pm. I’d like to feel better than this. Maybe the change will come soon. I’m hoping!
It was another beautiful day today. Hope they just keep on coming. Want to spend some more time outside before winter starts to set in.
My blood chemistry took a huge hit. Not enough to put me into danger but it’s a big step backwards. That’s very disappointing. Next test is on Thursday. We’ll have to see what Thursday brings. Hopefully, results that are much improved. I’ve noticed that the blood chemistry tends to respond in a “wave-like” rhythm. Perhaps this is a very normal pattern. They’ve found a new infection. This one both worries and embarrasses me. I’ll let you guess where it’s located. Apparently, all of the medical people who need to examine it are female. Does this ever end? I might as well just walk around naked! I’m very frustrated right now. Think I’ll take a nap!
When in doubt or frustrated, take a nap! That seems to be my solution. Speaking of solutions, I’ve found an answer for changing the CPAP pressure by remote. My supplier, Marra, suggested that I take the monitoring flash drive out of the CPAP and insert it into my computer. When they receive the authorization to change the pressure, they will download it to the flash drive. When I take the flash drive and re-insert it into the CPAP, it should automatically change the pressure to the correct level. It sounds good to me! I’m looking forward to getting the pressure correct on the CPAP and sleeping well for the entire night. This is very encouraging. It’s a rainy and windy day today. I’m glad that I don’t have any appointments that I have to go to. I’m so pleased with all of the good things that I have in my life. I have a great deal to enjoy and I do.
Wasn’t able to change the pressure. Didn’t work. Tech is sending me a flash drive with the pressure already set in it. Need to insert it and the pressure should automatically change.
Still, I need to take care of the spiritual side of my life.When it comes to prayer I do a pretty good job. Scriptures, on the other hand, are another matter. I need that influence in my life. The same is true of church attendance. I’ve been attending regularly but I’m still pretty feeble. People from church want to visit us but I’m really not up to it. Neither is Lynne. She’s always been a little bit reclusive. She prefers to spend her time with family. That’s all the energy that I have (and have had) for many years.
I’m finding the need to use a little bit less painkiller. Is it because of less pain or less anxiety? Inquiring minds want to know! Next thing I need to do is to find a chiropractor. That could bring down the need for pain medicine considerably!
Once again, here I am, betwixt and between. This week has been a time of minimal energy and little progress in terms of improving my blood statistics. Something’s holding me back and I have no idea what is going on. I’ve been sliding back but not very much. I don’t know how to read these things so I become confused and anxious. So much more to learn and so little ambition. Trying to follow through but my mind isn’t clear. If it were, it would help me so much. The other problem is this computer. Often, when I’m ready to work, the computer isn’t. Sometimes it won’t let me log in (with the correct name) or the internet doesn’t function the way that it should. Impediments to getting work done. These are concentration destroyers as well. Oh, well, there is truly opposition in all things. I need more strength and insight into my own character. Tomorrow’s a new day. Anything’s possible. That’s the good part. Never know what is going to happen next.
Had a tough day today with intestinal problems. There was a lot of pain and, frankly, it had me scared. According to my doctors, I’m losing weight. I know for certain that my mind isn’t very clear. Don’t know what to do about either issue. In general, I’ve been enjoying myself and often feel reasonably comfortable. Then it passes and I’m not feeling well again. I’m actually beginning to look forward to my colonoscopy on Tuesday in hopes that it will provide me with some meaningful answers that will help me get beyond this point. I feel that I need some kind of a breakthrough but I don’t know what or how.
This whole process is bewildering to me. I wish I could rest but I don’t feel as though I’m able to. Still don’t have the pressure change in my CPAP. I’m certain that will help as well. At least it will mean better rest. What a struggle it has been to get this done! Getting this pressure changed should not have been difficult.
Still don’t feel like eating. Every time I eat I feel bloated. Then I have burning in my intestines which continues right up until I have a bowel movement. That can go on for an hour or so. I don’t understand what’s going on at all. I wish that I were done with all of this but that’s not up to me (obviously).
Went to a chiropractor today. He was able to adjust my neck (which is notoriously difficultly to do).Definitely felt better afterwards.
Same thing again. Expecting one thing, getting another. The way that I feel during a day changes kaleidoscopically. It just never ends. I don’t know what to do about it. Every time it appears that I’m making straightforward progress, something else happens. I’ll be so glad when this is over. Right now, I think I’ll take another nap. Beats sitting around being frustrated.
Went to Church today. Lasted about 2 1/2 hours. They had a joint meeting at the end that was too much for me. Too many people in too small a space. I was glad to be able to go to church and equally as glad to be able to leave that crowded place. Nevertheless, got a spiritual boost from the effort! Oh, the great news at church is that they just started a Spanish speaking class today. I’m in heaven. I was largely ignored but I still enjoyed myself!
More tomorrow. (I’ll publish again next Sunday). I hope somebody finds this useful because I have a pretty boring life. At least the pain is diminishing. Notice it less and less. I’m hoping that the chiropractic visits help me with that too! That’s all for now folks!